Today I let myself be led on another wild goose chase. Hmmm. Interesting choice of words - I would NEVER chase a goose, wild or otherwise. What are the origins of this saying? I'll Google that later but for now I digress. Today I went to see another doctor.
This doctor is a chiropractor who specializes in CRA, Contact Reflex Analysis. It's also known as Applied Kinesiology. I'm not going to explain it all here, you can check it out, laugh, believe, whatever. None of that is my point for today.
This is: I've been to one of these practitioners before, sometime last year. It was going along fine despite some misgiving I felt when she said she would pray about my treatment. I'd purchased the prescribed supplements. While at home, I started reading all the labels as I'm wont to do and noticed BOVINE BILE SALTS in the ingredient list!!! I looked at the other bottles - there were animal parts in all of the supplements! Pig's pancreas. I truly almost vomited. I'd been been pescatarian for about a year at this point and I was truly horrified. Sad, disgusted, ugh, ugh, did I say ugh? Naturally, I called the office with my "concern"and it was confirmed that I could return the unopened products at my next appointment. No problem.
Well, it was a problem for someone. During that next appointment, the doctor told me she could not help me if I wouldn't use those products. LAST appointment.
So now fast forward to the gym a couple of mornings ago when someone overheard a discussion that included my digestive woes. He asked me if I believed in "witch doctors," which I do, and gave me this one's information. I was excited! I have an autoimmune situation and am passionate in my pursuit of information and strategies to heal myself. But ... when I checked him out and realized he did the CRA, I had my doubts due to my previous experience. When I called to make my appointment, I asked, I clarified, I confirmed that he would not have any issues with helping me as I am a vegan. No problem.
Wanna guess what happened today?
That's right. My last appointment.
Oh, he said he'd try to help me but it would be very difficult. We made a plan for me to use a product I'd have to get somewhere else and I left promising to call to schedule my two week follow up. I was upset. I needed time to process this. I went to Paisley and had a vegan lunch. I processed.
My first reaction was to be pissed at them for a lack of cohesive message. Thanks a bunch for wasting my time! Hard on the heels of that was to be pissed at myself. Dumbass! Why did I put myself in that position again? But my final reaction is to be glad he won't help me and this is the reason why: I don't want to support a business whose main business is selling the death of animals so that humans can have health. It's wrong and it's incorrect, it's not necessary, it's not moral, and it's not going in my karmic chart of accounts ever again. So. Even if he thinks he can help me and find alternatives, I still won't be his patient. I won't help him in his business.
Today I got a little clarity, a little surer of myself and that, I have no doubt, will help me heal.
*Interesting footnote - both of those doctors who did the CRA/Applied Kinesiology and used the Standard Process products were also both heavily Christian, I mean heavy. The first one prayed about my treatment, as I mentioned, and the second one had the Bible all around and I heard the young woman up front (in this family business) refer to God at least 10 times in my wait. Not sure exactly where the connect lies, but I found it interesting.